It wouldn’t be that difficult to pretend, people do it every day, but it never seems to work for me. There’s a certain bliss that comes with ignorance because the truth can be such a punishing thing. It is cruel and harsh in its ability to reveal the distortions of our faked reality and so we run from it. And yet the farther we run, the further we’ll fall inevitably and always.
So if I am to be honest, I don’t believe that there is anyone who is ever truly ignorant. If they are, they either really don’t care or they’re deeply living in the land of delusion. But if you do care and you’re not delusional, then at some point, you would have thought that something wasn’t right.
Sometimes we know the ride is ending and so we close our eyes and ride it out. Other times we tell ourselves that we’re being paranoid, that this has been an investment and we’ll stick it out because we’ve been on it long enough that it has to be worth it.
From experience, I know what it’s like to hold on for the very same reasons. I have closed my eyes for the ride and I have torn them open. I have fought and argued and I have changed my number and walked away. And even amongst the niggling doubts, I have thought that what was mine was solely so.
The truth can be difficult when it holds the potential of ruining all you’ve held on for. Being ignorant to it will never help, running from it will lead you in a roundabout. And if anyone ever lies to you, it wont be because they’re good at it, it’ll be because you wanted to believe them.
In the end you can be blissful in your routine and in what you want to believe or you can face the truth and the turmoil that it brings. It’s not about holding on because you’ve already held on this long, but rather it’s being open finally to the entire picture. A picture, which right now may not be what you want to see, but inevitably and always, will be better than when your eyes were closed, pretending.